What if…

I have a tendency to think about death.  It started with my friend John (see earlier posts); and now that I have two chronic diseases, it continues.  I have what I call PD&E (that’s Parkinson’s Disease and Emphysema).

I medically retired from the working world June 2010, and now I have a lot of time on my hands.  That’s good and that’s bad.  I like having time to write, time to think; depending on what I am thinking about.

It used to be that I thought about death because of John, working with him had a profound effect on me.  However now I tend to thing of my own mortality and that’s OK, we should all do that now and again; just don’t make it a hobby.  When I dwell on it I come up with some interesting questions and philosophical musings.

One of my favorite mind games is the “what if/I wish/if only” game.  We all play it; like, ‘I wish I would win the lotto’ or ‘what if I asked her out’ or ‘if only I didn’t have PD&E’.  There’s an old saying that says “wish in one hand and spit in the other and see which one fills up first’.

I try not to think about death, but it’s happened all around me so close, so often.  It all started when I was 10 or 11, my grandfather suddenly died of a heart attack, four years later my mother died at 40, also from a heart attach.  Two years later a good friend in high school drowned followed by friends dying car accidents and Vietnam; then friends and shipmates in the Navy.  I’ve known four people personally that committed suicide.  More recently my father-in-law and step-daughter and some close friends from church all left us.  And on and on.

Death used to bother me, even scare me; but no more.  We have no real control over it; we get to go to a far better place than this, and when we do, we are whole again.  No suffering.  And no, I AM NOT considering ending my life, God does not approve.

So what’s this all add up to?  Simply this:  “I don’t worry about dying, but I am concerned with how I am going to die”.  Still I look forward to the trip when it’s my turn.  Can you imagine seeing all of creation from the other side?

And for me personally, I look forward to meeting my Creator, my Saviour and the Holy Spirit.  Reuniting with family and friends.  And think about meeting Moses, Abraham, David, Isaac and Jacob, et. al.  What a day of rejoicing that will be!

So if you are sick, or dying, fear not!  Pray and pray some more and when it’s time, go in peace and with great anticipation.  God will take care of the rest.

Mumbles says

No one gets out of here alive.