My faith struggles

I always wonder about people who don’t believe in God, it’s like “what’s your problem?”

But then I remember that I had the good fortune to grow up in a Christian home, and I went to a Christian grade school; so it all seemed natural to me.   But as I get older and I read more Bible passages and inspirational materials, it gives me pause and I struggle with several things, like the following:

Trying to understand creation.  How did God do it?  And based on how we treat each other and how we are destroying the beautiful home He created for us; why did he create all that is?

Trying to get my head around the fact that God has always been.  How do we as humans grasp the concept of “always”?  How long is always in Earth years?  And when we die and go to Heaven, how long is forever?  The human mind doesn’t deal well with “always” and “forever”.

Trying to figure out if life is a matter of fate or whether we have free will to do as we please to our own detriment?  On this item I tend to believe God has given us free will.  I find it difficult to believe God would have our lives all laid out, and we are just going  through the motions.  And I don’t believe God our pre-program humans to murder, rape, et. al.  Whereas with free will, we can do what we want, but we pay the price for our actions.

There are those who question how God can let such bad things happen to good people.  How can someone who believes in God, obeys all the commandments to the best of his ability, and then gets cancer or some other deadly disease?

All of these are things we struggle with.  We question our faith, we question God and from that we form our opinions that will define our faith journey.

I don’t have answers to these questions, I just  a struggling believer like the rest, but I do know this: over the years I have faded in and out of my faith, and in the long run, I believe in God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit and I trust in God to see me though this life.

Mumbles says, life may be difficult, but at the end, if we have learned to believe in God, it will be worth it.

Goods Peace!