When I was a kid, I was a pistol, always in trouble, always looking for attention… in other words I was front and center in virtually everything I did. For a kid, I suppose that was mostly normal, but I went to extremes.
When I was a teenager, nothing changed, still wanted the limelight, still brash and in your face. I was blessed with a great sense of humor and I used it to get my attention that I felt I deserved. And so it went, through my 20’s, and 30’s. When I met my wife, I still wanted all the attention, but I did mellow a little bit.
Now I’m 65 and I’m finally catching on; it’s not about me, it’s about other; what I can do for them, say to them and learn from them. I’ve tried to upstage virtually everyone, including God. I have tried to turn the away from God and get people to pay attention to me.
But in my old age, I’m learning about a thing called humility. And I learned it from St. Matthew who wrote the following:
11″ The greatest among you will be your servant. 12 For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
There are so many verses in the Bible where Jesus talks about humility; the first shall be last and the last shall be first. Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.”
In Matthew 16, Jesus again told his disciples “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 25 For whoever wants to save their life[a] will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.26 What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? 27 For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.”
It is a major theme in Jesus’ ministry, first will be last, last first; if you would lead, you must follow.
To some degree, we are all selfish and self-centered; at least that’s true if you are willing to admit it. Almost everyone likes attention, at least some attention; and some of us almost demand it.
Now, I try to be less the star and more the audience.
Mumbles says: Humble yourself before the Lord you God.